Misery

I was 6 years old, and was being tugged in by my mom. She and dad had had a huge fight, and dad was still making a turmoil downstairs as our mom sang me goodnight lullabies to make me sleep.
Early morning the next day, I woke up by them entering my room, screaming, and shouting at each other. My mom took me out of bed, but dad quickly grabbed me from mom and yelled “he is mine”, then my mom  pulled me back and yelled “no, he is mine”. 

All Thanks to You

I went through hard times when I grew up, endless bullying, no friends and a torn and separated family that was in constant battle. I always had a very hard time seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, if any light at all. After numerous depressions I finally met a very special person – a person that made me feel reborn and made me see the world in colors for the first time in a very, very long time.

Open Fire

Sometimes it feels like your whole life has been pre-planned and pre-arranged and no matter what you do to fight it, you can’t change the way of fate. This song is about trying to fight one’s way out of a cycle in life.

Breathe

Sitting beside your loved one’s deathbed, trying to hold back the tears and stay strong for her, as she tells you that everything will be just fine, and that you should now focus on continuing your life and be happy. As she whispers “hold me tight” you can hear her final breath and feel her soul leave her body. You’re always hoping she’s following you around from the skies, is she?

Keyboard Warriors

A song about all the greasy lowlifes that crave the constant need of putting themselves above others by writing hateful things, to feel better about their own miserable selves and their sorry lives.

Don't Wanna Be Me

“I want to scream but all I can is whisper, it’s hurting more than anything that bleeds”
- People who haven’t experienced depression, will never know how much it hurts and how hard it is to crawl out of the hole you’re in. Some are never able to climb out. You feel numb to life and wish to not exist. When I was down the most, dreams about not being me was the only thing that kept me alive. This song is about these feelings.  

Obsessed with Nothingness

About feeding the negative energy with even more negative energy.
When first the fire spreads, it will become harder and harder to fight. Some people will try and help put out the fire, but some will also blow and make it spread even further.

Spit Out Your Pride

When you’ve had enough of everyone’s bullshit, and you just wanna bury yourself in the cold ground if it means to be free from people’s negligence, ignorance, lack of empathy and general bad attitude.

The Chasm of Bleakness

Even though you’re consumed by loneliness, feel empty and hollow and your dark memories come back to haunt you, you’re never alone and there’s always someone who loves you and wants to be there for you, even though it can be hard to see in difficult times. Believe in yourself and stay true to who you are.

Carrier of Extinction

Low self-esteem is something that can bore a hole through every person. It’s like a poison that consumes and evolves quickly if not being treated right. It’s paralyzing your mind and slowly destroys who you really are as a person.